Saturday, December 29, 2007
"Dashing Through the Snow..."
Friday, December 28, 2007
Sorry Jeff....
Tuesday, December 4, 2007
Contentment
"But godliness with contentment is great gain. For we brought nothing into the world, and we can take nothing out of it. But if we have food and clothing, we will be content with that. Those who want to get rich fall into temptation and a trap and into many foolish and harmful desires that plunge people into ruin and destruction. For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil. Some people, eager for money, have wandered from the faith and pierced themselves with many griefs.
But you, man of God, flee from all this, and pursue righteousness, godliness, faith, love , endurance and gentleness. Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called when you made your good confession in the presence of many witnesses."
Some observations to note about the above scripture...It does not say that the rich fall into temptation, but the desire to get rich can lead there. Also, money is not the root of all evil as we have been quoted so many times, but the love of money!
So, the major point of the sermon was that earthly treasures in themselves are not all evil. But, a steady diet of them leaves no room for you to desire the treasures of heaven. Brian used the example of giving up sugar last year for lent. He said the first two weeks were horrible, but after that he started to realize how great "regular" food tasted. He said he learned in his spiritual life that if he denies himself something, that it gives room for God to wake in him a desire for something else, something bigger, those intangibles!
Time for Kara's life application time/honest and open. I like stuff, and a lot of different stuff. Am I allowing my desire for this or that to over power my desires for the treasures of heaven? I look at my daughter and feel this gut wrenching love and sense of purpose and I'm beginning to learn that Natalie and all the lessons, frustration, and joy are some of my treasures in heaven. Maybe I should be pursuing the things in life that break me down to that gut wrenching love.
I also love to be busy and active. Sometimes I think I replace quiet time and introspection with filling my schedule with just one more thing. God does not care about my schedule and how much I want to do. This is a lesson that has been taught to me in a very real way the past month or so. You don't get to be busy when you are on bed rest or "taking it easy" and there are a lot of people in my life who will remind me if I push it (not to mention the little bundle of joy that sends me piles of contractions if I misbehave). I have learned what it means to slow down and just find the miracles and beauty in the world around me, even in my own home. I've studied Natalie for hours and find myself praising God without even realizing it because of the wonder and love she fills me with. I've learned what a loving and caring husband I have who is patient beyond what I deserve or can even fathom. He starts every day brand new with a great attitude. I have much to learn from him. I have learned how to receive acts of service from others and to enjoy it, not feel guilty because I'm used to being the one to serve others. I'm learning how to accept love! Okay, enough rambles. Ryan and I are heading off to sunny Florida on Thursday and I will be thinking of you all, as I sit by the pool!
Friday, November 30, 2007
Havinababy Itsaboy
K-Well, the polls are closed and all but one of you who voted were correct! Michael Henry James Telman is well on his way and healthy as can be! Ryan wouldn't let me post the picture of his "boy parts", the little guy is pretty proud of them and really showed off for the camera (ultrasound, whatever). The ultrasound tech told us she had no doubt that he is a boy. We've had a couple ultrasounds since and all three agree. Mom has not been as healthy, we've had a few complications and I've been on and off bed rest most of this month. So Julie told me I should use my time wisely and post on my blog. Natalie is very excited about her little brother (hey, she can't talk yet so she feels however I say she feels!). If you ask her "Where is Baby Michael ?" she will come and kiss my belly. Aren't trained seals, I mean kids, great! Okay, so Ryan wants to add his two cents....shocker....
R-Did my absence make the heart grow fonder? Weren't you waiting to see what I'd say next? (Jeff, Kurt, Pete I'm not asking you. Ok the whole things is rhetorical.) I couldn't let the first posting go up and not add anything about my son. Ya, it's true I edited my wife's photo selections and Michael will thank me later in life for that, but he is proud to be a boy. Lets just hope that he has more rhythm then his dad does. Having a son and a daughter I'll get to force (I'm mean encourage) all the great sports for both boys and girls. And those sports would be football, basketball, golf, and hockey. I may allow a few others, but it must pass the committee. I taught Natalie to put her arms up every time I say touchdown!! For Michael he'll probably just pull out the Sharpie and start signing autographs.
Friday, November 9, 2007
Someone said something...
Saturday, October 6, 2007
Summer/Fall update
Hey again everyone, I realize it's October, but here's the update from the rest of the summer. We went camping a couple times in the pop up. Neither went very smoothly, but a fun time was had by all. Natalie discovered that she loves baked beans and will eat them until she is sick. Good to know. We went up to the Leja's cottage for Memorial day. Jodi was the grill master and as usual there was enough food to feed a small army. We relaxed, played in the water and on the beach. It was beautiful.
So far this fall we have...pretty much not done anything noteworthy. As mentioned before Ryan went away on business to Pittsburgh for the longest 9 days ever. Natalie had her first experience with and oxygen mask at our trip to the med center when she had RSV. And lastly, I've been working on this whole baby thing and have now finished the first trimester. I feel soooo much better but am finding this pregnancy thing really rough while chasing a one-year-old. I nap when I can and whine a lot :) I've got to milk this pregnancy because it is probably our last. I think it's a boy. I'm going to do one of those poll things (if I can figure it out) and see what you all think! Till next time...
Sunday, September 30, 2007
Perfect?
Julie, Jessica and I were talking about a blog of one of Jessica's friends saying they really enjoyed reading it because the woman was so real with her thoughts. Then today at church, the sermon was about labels that we give to people or give to ourselves. At the end of the sermon we were invited to come to the cross to give our labels a final resting place and learn freedom in the only label we need..."forgiven".
That got me thinking, what are my labels? In school I was always the "Honor roll student" and all around "good girl". In college I was "fun", "smart" and for the majority of the time "Andy's girlfriend". Then came the crisis of graduating and starting to define myself within the real world. I think the label that described the next five years best was "nurse". It was not only my profession, but my personality all rolled in one. Then I met this skinny, red-headed guy and fell madly in love and graduated to the labels of "fiance" and then "spouse". These were hard for me because the attached me to another person. I felt I no longer had my own identity, but was always considered in context of my marriage. That's when I started to really try to achieve the label of "perfect". At times I wanted to extend that to Ryan (which is totally unfair, I realize this, but as I stated earlier I felt that I was only seen in context of my relationship. None of this was a result of anything Ryan said or did, he never labeled me as anything other than "Kara". God was so wise in sending him to me!). Then God rocked my world again and I became a "mother". This label is so weighty at times I feel crushed by the responsibility of it. "Perfect" seems so far away.
Guess what? I lose my temper at times at this amazing little gift from God, Natalie. I lose my mind at times from being tired beyond any tired I have every felt before. I don't clean my house with any sort of regularity, in fact my daughter frequently finds and eats days old Cheerios off the floor and it doesn't bother me. I have actually not had time to shower for days, and I don't remember what my face looks like when it has make-up on every day. I opt for pants instead of skirts or shorts many times because shaving my legs seems like such a time waster. I'm not a great wife to my husband all the time, I try and fail over and over. I want to be a size 6, but I am never going to be, and that gives me such a feeling of worthlessness at times it is crazy. I mean, there are people starving to death, homeless, or have suffered horrible tragedies, and I'm obsessed with the number on the tag of my jeans, get real. I love going to work some days because there I'm not "Natalie's Mom" I'm "Kara" (but I love my days off too where there is nothing better than being "mom"). So now you now my deep dark secrets and I am dropping my endless effort to be "perfect". I'm tattooing the label "forgiven" right across my forehead and embracing all that it means.
So, what are your labels and who put them there? Are you carrying a label around that you got as a child and hasn't applied in decades but haven't been able to peel off? I know it will be hard to not go back to my old insecurities when I feel like others are judging me and my family. Please give me a nudge if you feel me heading in that direction. I can always use the support of my family and friends.
Lastly, I need a new name for my site since it really is just "She says" something every 2 months. I promise to get better! Let me know what your ideas are!
Thursday, August 2, 2007
A little of this and that
Saturday, June 23, 2007
We're off to see the Wizard?...
Friday, May 25, 2007
Back for another season...
Monday, April 23, 2007
Back to Reality...
KT - After much apprehension and a few tears, I left our daughter in excellent care and went on vacation. She hit a big milestone about a day before we left, she started to crawl. Granted she looked like a drunken sailor (her top half went forward, her bottom half went sideways), but it was crawling! We spent 5 days in Fort Lauderdale at the Harbor Beach Marriott. Our room was phenomenal, it was as suite! The sign on the door said the suggested retail was $4,000 a night! And, it's hard to cry the whole time when you are sitting at the pool sipping fru-fru drinks and then going to the spa for a pedicure, manicure and hour long massage. We really roughed it. Ryan played poker by the pool for about three days straight, you should see his deep, dark tan! We spent most of our time with two other couples (Susanne and Dennis Dahl and Rachel and Steve Miller) and a set of "just friends"(Mike and Ashley - I won't even venture on how to spell their last names). Other than lounging around, we had an awards night for the winners of the trip (they represented the top 7% of Huntington employees!) that ended with a dinner cruise on a huge yatch down the Intercostal. Ryan and I picked out a few possibilities for our future summer home! We also went into Hollywood for dinner one night and then to the Hard Rock casino. That was my first excperience with slot machines, probably my last! We were up about $20, but lost it all and $20 more in the last 45 minutes. Lesson learned. We flew back on Sunday and got to spend the evening with our little girl, I couldn't get through the door fast enough to squeeze her!
Monday, April 9, 2007
Roo's first Easter!
KT - Well, Natalie's first Easter was blessing. She was sunshine all day. Just looking at my perfect little girl makes my heart break for Mary. Can you imagine seeing your child nailed to a cross? Why was Mary chosen to bear the exceptional pain of being the mother of Christ? Because she also was exceptionally blessed to be His mother. I was in awe when I saw Natalie's face light up with a smile for the first time. Mary saw her son turn water into wine and heal the sick! She had a bond with Christ no one will ever experience. I thank God daily for the gift he has given me in my little girl. I'm sure Mary felt the same way about Jesus, even as she watched him suffer and die FOR US. We had so much fun with Easter baskets and family dinner, but the most amazing gift is that HE IS RISEN!